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Boys Club for Girls
Boys Club for Girls

 

All songs written by Amie Miriello and Vanessa Olivarez, except “The Weatherman” and “Friend” written by Amie Miriello, Vanessa Olivarez, and Jay Dmuchowski

 

Produced by Tim Craven before, during, and after the pandemic at Blackbird Studio in Nashville and Dark Horse Institute in Franklin, Tennessee


 

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TRACK LISTING
 

  1. Tell Me I’m the Only One (4:08)

  2. Romance Is Dead (4:22)

  3. Not Just Yet (4:00)

  4. The Weatherman (3:23)

  5. Bad Luck Baby (3:23)

  6. Closest (5:02)

  7. Friend (4:20)

  8. Anne Marie (4:35)

  9. 5 O’Clock Shadow (4:47)

  10. Liar’s Land (4:41)

  11. Past Life (5:05)

 

Tracks 4 & 7: © 2023 Universal Music Publishing Group (BMI); Gypsy Girl Music (BMI); Don Donuts (ASCAP).

 

All other tracks: © 2023 Universal Music Publishing Group (BMI); Gypsy Girl Music (BMI).

 

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1   

TELL ME I’M THE ONLY ONE

(3/1/19)

 

A moody meditation on the tension surrounding a deteriorating relationship. You’re both thinking the same thing. Who will be the first to say goodbye?


 

I got some money in the bedroom drawer

I could buy a ticket to California 

You say you’re workin’ late but I know better

You blame it on the booze, blame it on the weather 

 

This shit’s getting old

But we’re too proud to let it go

 

Ooooh

Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it

Ooooh 

Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it

 

I got a car, couple hundred thousand miles on it

I could ride it all night in the dark till the morning sun hits

I got a habit for staying too long

I’d say we should get going, but we’re already gone

 

I know you feel the same

But you just look the other way

 

Ooooh

Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it

Ooooh 

Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it

 

‘Cause this shit’s getting old

But we’re too proud to let it go

 

Ooooh

Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it

Ooooh 

Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it

 

Ooooh 

Tell me I’m the only one whose heart is wandering, I’m wondering

Ooooh

Do you even notice that my eyes are watering, do you baby 

Ooooh

Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it

Ooooh 

Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it

 

Ooooh

Tell me I’m the only one



 

 

2   

ROMANCE IS DEAD

(12/1/18)

 

An anthemic fuck-you to the lack of romance in the modern world. 

 

Got someone that I call mine

Who only wants me half the time

We’re burning out like last night’s high

Flickerin’ like a neon light

 

Hot and cold and cruel and mean

And all the places in between 

Can’t get out of my own way

Drowning in your memory

 

What I really need

Is somebody that’s real

I don’t wanna keep

Climbing that hill, no

‘Cause it’s hard 

And it hurts

And as sad as it is

Kinda feels like

Romance is dead

 

Don’t need roses on my pillow case

Just kiss me with that champagne taste

Even when the time gets stale 

You won’t look at no one else

 

What I really need

Is somebody that’s real

I don’t wanna keep

Climbing that hill, no no

‘Cause it’s hard 

And it hurts

And as sad as it is

Kinda feels like

Romance is dead

 

We try and we try to love someone 

But there ain’t no one, no there ain’t no one

We try and we try to hold someone

But no one comes ‘cause there ain’t no one

 

We try and we try to love someone 

But there ain’t no one, no there ain’t no one

We try and we try to hold someone

But no one comes



 

 

3   

NOT JUST YET

(8/13/20)

 

You know the you from before. She’s in there somewhere. You might have lost her in someone else, but you’ll get her back one day soon. “Not Just Yet” is about the feeling of seeing the person you once loved in every small everyday thing. A glass of wine, a book they would have read. It may seem that the person who broke you will remain endlessly impossible to forget—that the idea of happiness only makes sense in the days before you felt the bitterness of the end. But time goes by and all that slowly disappears, and suddenly we find the person meant for us. This song is about that constant reminder of not being over someone…not just yet.

 

I bet you never knew how fast I could flip the switch 

I bet you’re tellin’ all your friends I’m a crazy bitch

I bet you had a lotta girls on the old back burner

I bet you’re gonna chalk this up to a lesson learned

 

Oooh, I feel it when the sun goes down and the moon is out 

Oooh, I feel it when I hear that song and you’re not around

Oooh, I feel it in the menthol smoke filling up my chest 

Oooh, I know I’m gonna be okay but I’m not just yet

 

Ooooh

No, I’m not just yet

Ooooh

 

I bet you never thought I knew to know to keep 

A stone’s throw from you, darling, even in my sleep

I bet you that your mouth is tired, always movin’ too fast

But it’ll never run fast enough to escape the past 

 

Oooh, I feel it when it gets dead quiet and I’m all alone

Oooh,  I feel it in the long low buzz of the dial tone 

Oooh, I feel it in the white wine cry on my little black dress

Oooh, I know I’m gonna be okay but I’m not just yet 

 

Ooooh

No, I’m not just yet

Ooooh



 

 

4   

THE WEATHERMAN

(11/22/19)

 

Human emotions change like the weather. This song is an analogy for the inevitable bouts of depression that can be followed by manic joy. 

 

Blue suit man on the TV screen 

Tryin’ to make the weather get the best of me

Thinks he knows how to make it rain

Thinks he knows goddamn everything 

 

Ohh

Ohh

Why can’t he just let me be

 

He’s the devil and you don’t wanna see him

Keep closing your eyes 

As much as you don’t wanna believe it

The sun’s gonna rise

 

You think you got it, but you don’t understand

Ain’t no controllin’ the weather, man

Run with the wind, baby, land where you land 

Ain’t no controllin’ the weatherman 

 

Fuck-me lips and my fuck-you boots

He ain’t gonna tell me what to do

Thinks he’s shootin’ me straight but he’s always wrong 

Just stick around, all the clouds are gone

Ohhh

 

He’s the devil and you don’t wanna see him

Keep closing your eyes 

As much as you don’t wanna believe it

The sun’s gonna rise

 

You think you got it, but you don’t understand

Ain’t no controllin’ the weather, man

Run with the wind, baby, land where you land 

Ain’t no controllin’ the weatherman 

 

It’s all in your mind 

Leave him behind

Ooh

 

He’s the devil and you don’t wanna see him

Keep closing your eyes 

As much as you don’t wanna believe it

The sun’s gonna rise

 

You think you got it, but you don’t understand

Ain’t no controllin’ the weather, man

Run with the wind, baby, land where you land 

Ain’t no controllin’ the weatherman 



 

 

5   

BAD LUCK BABY

(1/6/19)

 

Is it really something you did when things fall apart, or are you just bad luck? When love fails over and over again, it’s easy to begin to believe that the problem is you. You’re the common denominator. So you create distance. Automatically warn new lovers of potential mistakes and misgivings. “Bad Luck Baby” is a self-punishing torch song about the fear of not being worthy of love, and about the things we do and say to intentionally or unintentionally self-sabotage—out of protection for ourselves and the ones we love. 

 

You don’t need a mess like me

You’re the lucky one

You’re the rabbit’s foot, I’m a black cat’s tongue 

Follow me into the dark

Till we hit the wall 

But you’d have my back if I slip and fall

 

Why can’t you hate me 

So I wouldn’t have to try 

To tell you I don’t love you

When I know that it’s a lie 

 

I know it’s crazy 

To push you away 

But I’m thinking maybe 

I’m bad luck, baby

 

I say it’s my fault 

You say it’s impossible 

Maybe I would be better off alone

 

I’ll just let you down, babe

‘Cause I’m not what you want

I’ll only make you lonely 

When the fascination’s done

 

I know it’s crazy 

To push you away 

But I’m thinking maybe 

I’m bad luck, baby

 

And I draw the fool, babe

And he gets me every time 

I pray that this is different

But the stars just don’t align 

 

I know it’s crazy 

To push you away 

But I’m thinking maybe 

I’m bad luck, baby



 

 

6   

CLOSEST

(12/21/18)

 

Sometimes the ones we love the most get the sharpest edge of the knife. 

 

I’m a knife in a fight

You’re the bird, I’m a hot wire

The blade in the side

Of a lion in the wild

 

I’m a flame on your palm

Think I’m keeping you warm

But the chill is sneaking in

Through the cracks in the door

 

What would happen 

If I broke this habit

If I let you have it

And I just gave in

Would you even want it 

If it wasn’t tragic 

Maybe half the magic

Is the fight we’re in

 

Story ends the same

Seems to be a thing

That I only hurt the closest ones to me

Ooh

Ooh

Ooooh

 

I’m the joke on us both 

The choke in the smoke 

A stone in the spoke 

Of a wheel rolling home

 

And I’ll bite when you bark

And I’ll light when you spark

As I ride the cable car 

To wherever you are 

 

What would happen 

If I broke this habit

If I let you have it

And I just gave in

Would you even want it 

If it wasn’t tragic 

Maybe half the magic

Is the fight we’re in

 

Story ends the same

Seems to be a thing

That I only hurt the closest ones to me

Ooh

Ooh

Ooooh

 

If I made it easy on you

You’d be bored and I would run

You love it

You know you love it

If I made it easy on you

You would stray and I would run

You love it

You know you love it 

 

But what would happen 

If I broke this habit

If I let you have it

And I just gave in

Would you even want it 

If it wasn’t tragic 

Maybe half the magic

Is the fight we’re in

 

Story ends the same

Seems to be a thing

That I only hurt the closest ones to me

Ooh

Ooh

Ooooh



 

 

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FRIEND

(1/10/20)

 

A song about the inability to let go of someone’s ghost.

 

Gotta let you down

Gotta help you drown

Oh, before I lose my head

And everyone in it

 

Got a long long way to go

Yeah I’ve been leaving footprints in the snow

Fear keeps rising up like smoke

You’re my one and only home

 

Making shadows with my hands

I’m hoping for someone who understands 

He might be my last slow dance

The last laugh I’ll ever have

 

So maybe I’m not alone

They can’t tell me you were ever gone

Friend

Friend

 

Let’s put on your suit and tie

I’m gonna dress you up inside my mind

Sing you stories every night

We both know they’re only lies

 

And maybe I’m not alone

They can’t tell me you were ever gone

 

Gotta let you go

Get out of the cold

Oh, before I lose myself 

Or anyone else

 

Gotta let you down

Gotta help you drown

Oh, before I lose my head

And everyone in it

 

Digging up all these old bones

I gotta hide them somewhere I don’t know 

Finally set your spirit free 

‘Cause I can’t keep you here with me

I can’t keep you here with me

I can’t keep you here with me



 

 

8   

ANNE MARIE

(5/27/20)

 

Destruction and chaos hold hands with addiction. This is a story about the unraveling it causes, based on someone we were close to.

 

Marlboro Lights under the moon

Poison coffee in the morning 

Late at night I think of you 

I wonder what ever became 

Of Anne Marie 

Anne Marie 

 

Smelled like jasmine and gin

More like Norma Jean than Marilyn

Did you ever make it home 

From chasing boys at the casino 

 

When a star burns out 

It don’t make a sound

But would you try for me

Maybe 

You’d come down 

Does it make a difference now

When you lie to you like you lie to me 

Anne Marie 

Anne Marie

 

Always said you were better high

Loved the taste of yesterday’s wine

How’d you get to be so cool

I used to wanna be just like you 

 

When a star burns out 

It don’t make a sound

But would you try for me

Maybe 

You’d come down 

Does it make a difference now

When you lie to you like you lie to me 

Anne Marie 

Anne Marie

 

When a star burns out 

It don’t make a sound

But would you try for me

Maybe 

You’d come down 

Does it make a difference now

When you lie to you like you lie to me

Like you lie to me

Like you lie to me



 

 

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5 O’CLOCK SHADOW

(3/11/19)

 

An ode to the darkness inside us that inevitably creeps in most evening hours.

 

When we got together to write “5 O’Clock Shadow,” we were both knee-deep in the winter blues—the place we all go sometimes where it’s more difficult to get out of bed in the mornings, or to go to bed at night without…help. The help of unhealthy habits. Drinking every night and existing just to exist. Every person in the world knows someone or is someone who struggles with addiction. We felt it was important to create this song and video to let people know they are not alone.


 

Woke up drunk again

Pounding in my head

Like the day before

 

Passed out on the bed

Lipstick cigarettes

Evidence of war

 

How the hell am I supposed to live without

You’re the only thing that makes me feel right now

And I can’t let it go

Hold together everything I gotta hold

But I fall whenever I’m alone

And there you are again

Hello old friend 

 

Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow 

Taking me down to the dark side of town, back to blue

Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow 

Spinning me ‘round and ‘round till there’s nothing I can do

But drown in you

Drown in you

 

Drag myself to work

Even when it hurts

Functional at best 

 

No one ever asks

Wave as they walk past

That’s just life I guess

 

Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow 

Taking me down to the dark side of town, back to blue

Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow 

Spinning me ‘round and ‘round till there’s nothing I can do

But drown in you

Drown in you

 

The light, it hurts my eyes

So I paint it black

Used to burn so bright

Now I 

I don’t shine at all

 

Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow 

Taking me down to the dark side of town, back to blue

Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow 

Spinning me ‘round and ‘round till there’s nothing I can do

But drown in you

Drown in you

Drown in you

Drown in you

 

 

10   

LIAR’S LAND

(3/28/19)

 

We’ve all dealt with shameless liars in our lives. If only there were a place they could all go. 

 

 

I could give you space as wide as the universe 

Somehow I would be too close

 

Fade away as dark as all your goodbye words

I could leave you all alone

But it’s never enough 

No, it’s never enough 

 

You washed me out your hair

You’re finally clean 

You’re such a hypocrite 

Why you gotta be so mean

 

You act like a lover

But never a friend 

Baby, you belong in a liar’s land

Say that it’s over 

Again and again 

Baby, you belong in a liar’s land 

Ooh, ooh

 

You know I can see your car parked right next door

And you know it gives me hell 

 

Talkin’ all the shit you know I can’t ignore 

Do it for the joke as far as I can tell 

 

You washed me out your hair

You’re finally clean 

You’re such a hypocrite 

Why you gotta be so mean

 

You act like a lover

But never a friend 

Baby, you belong in a liar’s land

Say that it’s over 

Again and again 

Baby, you belong in a liar’s land 

 

Tell me, does it make you feel good 

Does it make you feel good to make me feel bad 

 

Tell me, does it make you feel good 

Does it make you feel good 

Does it make you feel good 

Woah



 

 

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PAST LIFE

(1/8/20)

 

We wanted to create a wave of sound and emotion that encompasses the euphoria of falling in love with someone you just know you’ve met before. 

 

I’ve seen your face before 

The one where you got somethin’ to say

But baby, you’re not sure

A moment of clarity 

In the space between

 

You know how to hold me close

But when I push away 

You know to let me go

Feels like a million years

We’ve been standing here

 

If I got over you 

Then what would my heart do

Can’t lose your love this time

Caught in your golden light

 

We were paradise 

In a past life 

Always you and I 

In a past life

 

You’re like a mirror ball

Reflecting every time I found you 

And you made me fall 

Pieces of history 

In the space between 

 

If I got over you 

Then what would my heart do

Can’t lose your love this time

Caught in your golden light

 

We were paradise 

In a past life 

Always you and I 

In a past life

 

We were paradise 

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