Boys Club for Girls
Boys Club for Girls
All songs written by Amie Miriello and Vanessa Olivarez, except “The Weatherman” and “Friend” written by Amie Miriello, Vanessa Olivarez, and Jay Dmuchowski
Produced by Tim Craven before, during, and after the pandemic at Blackbird Studio in Nashville and Dark Horse Institute in Franklin, Tennessee
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TRACK LISTING
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Tell Me I’m the Only One (4:08)
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Romance Is Dead (4:22)
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Not Just Yet (4:00)
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The Weatherman (3:23)
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Bad Luck Baby (3:23)
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Closest (5:02)
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Friend (4:20)
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Anne Marie (4:35)
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5 O’Clock Shadow (4:47)
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Liar’s Land (4:41)
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Past Life (5:05)
Tracks 4 & 7: © 2023 Universal Music Publishing Group (BMI); Gypsy Girl Music (BMI); Don Donuts (ASCAP).
All other tracks: © 2023 Universal Music Publishing Group (BMI); Gypsy Girl Music (BMI).
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1
TELL ME I’M THE ONLY ONE
(3/1/19)
A moody meditation on the tension surrounding a deteriorating relationship. You’re both thinking the same thing. Who will be the first to say goodbye?
I got some money in the bedroom drawer
I could buy a ticket to California
You say you’re workin’ late but I know better
You blame it on the booze, blame it on the weather
This shit’s getting old
But we’re too proud to let it go
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it
I got a car, couple hundred thousand miles on it
I could ride it all night in the dark till the morning sun hits
I got a habit for staying too long
I’d say we should get going, but we’re already gone
I know you feel the same
But you just look the other way
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it
‘Cause this shit’s getting old
But we’re too proud to let it go
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one whose heart is wandering, I’m wondering
Ooooh
Do you even notice that my eyes are watering, do you baby
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one who thinks about it
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one that thinks that they can live without it
Ooooh
Tell me I’m the only one
2
ROMANCE IS DEAD
(12/1/18)
An anthemic fuck-you to the lack of romance in the modern world.
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Got someone that I call mine
Who only wants me half the time
We’re burning out like last night’s high
Flickerin’ like a neon light
Hot and cold and cruel and mean
And all the places in between
Can’t get out of my own way
Drowning in your memory
What I really need
Is somebody that’s real
I don’t wanna keep
Climbing that hill, no
‘Cause it’s hard
And it hurts
And as sad as it is
Kinda feels like
Romance is dead
Don’t need roses on my pillow case
Just kiss me with that champagne taste
Even when the time gets stale
You won’t look at no one else
What I really need
Is somebody that’s real
I don’t wanna keep
Climbing that hill, no no
‘Cause it’s hard
And it hurts
And as sad as it is
Kinda feels like
Romance is dead
We try and we try to love someone
But there ain’t no one, no there ain’t no one
We try and we try to hold someone
But no one comes ‘cause there ain’t no one
We try and we try to love someone
But there ain’t no one, no there ain’t no one
We try and we try to hold someone
But no one comes
3
NOT JUST YET
(8/13/20)
You know the you from before. She’s in there somewhere. You might have lost her in someone else, but you’ll get her back one day soon. “Not Just Yet” is about the feeling of seeing the person you once loved in every small everyday thing. A glass of wine, a book they would have read. It may seem that the person who broke you will remain endlessly impossible to forget—that the idea of happiness only makes sense in the days before you felt the bitterness of the end. But time goes by and all that slowly disappears, and suddenly we find the person meant for us. This song is about that constant reminder of not being over someone…not just yet.
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I bet you never knew how fast I could flip the switch
I bet you’re tellin’ all your friends I’m a crazy bitch
I bet you had a lotta girls on the old back burner
I bet you’re gonna chalk this up to a lesson learned
Oooh, I feel it when the sun goes down and the moon is out
Oooh, I feel it when I hear that song and you’re not around
Oooh, I feel it in the menthol smoke filling up my chest
Oooh, I know I’m gonna be okay but I’m not just yet
Ooooh
No, I’m not just yet
Ooooh
I bet you never thought I knew to know to keep
A stone’s throw from you, darling, even in my sleep
I bet you that your mouth is tired, always movin’ too fast
But it’ll never run fast enough to escape the past
Oooh, I feel it when it gets dead quiet and I’m all alone
Oooh, I feel it in the long low buzz of the dial tone
Oooh, I feel it in the white wine cry on my little black dress
Oooh, I know I’m gonna be okay but I’m not just yet
Ooooh
No, I’m not just yet
Ooooh
4
THE WEATHERMAN
(11/22/19)
Human emotions change like the weather. This song is an analogy for the inevitable bouts of depression that can be followed by manic joy.
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Blue suit man on the TV screen
Tryin’ to make the weather get the best of me
Thinks he knows how to make it rain
Thinks he knows goddamn everything
Ohh
Ohh
Why can’t he just let me be
He’s the devil and you don’t wanna see him
Keep closing your eyes
As much as you don’t wanna believe it
The sun’s gonna rise
You think you got it, but you don’t understand
Ain’t no controllin’ the weather, man
Run with the wind, baby, land where you land
Ain’t no controllin’ the weatherman
Fuck-me lips and my fuck-you boots
He ain’t gonna tell me what to do
Thinks he’s shootin’ me straight but he’s always wrong
Just stick around, all the clouds are gone
Ohhh
He’s the devil and you don’t wanna see him
Keep closing your eyes
As much as you don’t wanna believe it
The sun’s gonna rise
You think you got it, but you don’t understand
Ain’t no controllin’ the weather, man
Run with the wind, baby, land where you land
Ain’t no controllin’ the weatherman
It’s all in your mind
Leave him behind
Ooh
He’s the devil and you don’t wanna see him
Keep closing your eyes
As much as you don’t wanna believe it
The sun’s gonna rise
You think you got it, but you don’t understand
Ain’t no controllin’ the weather, man
Run with the wind, baby, land where you land
Ain’t no controllin’ the weatherman
5
BAD LUCK BABY
(1/6/19)
Is it really something you did when things fall apart, or are you just bad luck? When love fails over and over again, it’s easy to begin to believe that the problem is you. You’re the common denominator. So you create distance. Automatically warn new lovers of potential mistakes and misgivings. “Bad Luck Baby” is a self-punishing torch song about the fear of not being worthy of love, and about the things we do and say to intentionally or unintentionally self-sabotage—out of protection for ourselves and the ones we love.
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You don’t need a mess like me
You’re the lucky one
You’re the rabbit’s foot, I’m a black cat’s tongue
Follow me into the dark
Till we hit the wall
But you’d have my back if I slip and fall
Why can’t you hate me
So I wouldn’t have to try
To tell you I don’t love you
When I know that it’s a lie
I know it’s crazy
To push you away
But I’m thinking maybe
I’m bad luck, baby
I say it’s my fault
You say it’s impossible
Maybe I would be better off alone
I’ll just let you down, babe
‘Cause I’m not what you want
I’ll only make you lonely
When the fascination’s done
I know it’s crazy
To push you away
But I’m thinking maybe
I’m bad luck, baby
And I draw the fool, babe
And he gets me every time
I pray that this is different
But the stars just don’t align
I know it’s crazy
To push you away
But I’m thinking maybe
I’m bad luck, baby
6
CLOSEST
(12/21/18)
Sometimes the ones we love the most get the sharpest edge of the knife.
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I’m a knife in a fight
You’re the bird, I’m a hot wire
The blade in the side
Of a lion in the wild
I’m a flame on your palm
Think I’m keeping you warm
But the chill is sneaking in
Through the cracks in the door
What would happen
If I broke this habit
If I let you have it
And I just gave in
Would you even want it
If it wasn’t tragic
Maybe half the magic
Is the fight we’re in
Story ends the same
Seems to be a thing
That I only hurt the closest ones to me
Ooh
Ooh
Ooooh
I’m the joke on us both
The choke in the smoke
A stone in the spoke
Of a wheel rolling home
And I’ll bite when you bark
And I’ll light when you spark
As I ride the cable car
To wherever you are
What would happen
If I broke this habit
If I let you have it
And I just gave in
Would you even want it
If it wasn’t tragic
Maybe half the magic
Is the fight we’re in
Story ends the same
Seems to be a thing
That I only hurt the closest ones to me
Ooh
Ooh
Ooooh
If I made it easy on you
You’d be bored and I would run
You love it
You know you love it
If I made it easy on you
You would stray and I would run
You love it
You know you love it
But what would happen
If I broke this habit
If I let you have it
And I just gave in
Would you even want it
If it wasn’t tragic
Maybe half the magic
Is the fight we’re in
Story ends the same
Seems to be a thing
That I only hurt the closest ones to me
Ooh
Ooh
Ooooh
7
FRIEND
(1/10/20)
A song about the inability to let go of someone’s ghost.
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Gotta let you down
Gotta help you drown
Oh, before I lose my head
And everyone in it
Got a long long way to go
Yeah I’ve been leaving footprints in the snow
Fear keeps rising up like smoke
You’re my one and only home
Making shadows with my hands
I’m hoping for someone who understands
He might be my last slow dance
The last laugh I’ll ever have
So maybe I’m not alone
They can’t tell me you were ever gone
Friend
Friend
Let’s put on your suit and tie
I’m gonna dress you up inside my mind
Sing you stories every night
We both know they’re only lies
And maybe I’m not alone
They can’t tell me you were ever gone
Gotta let you go
Get out of the cold
Oh, before I lose myself
Or anyone else
Gotta let you down
Gotta help you drown
Oh, before I lose my head
And everyone in it
Digging up all these old bones
I gotta hide them somewhere I don’t know
Finally set your spirit free
‘Cause I can’t keep you here with me
I can’t keep you here with me
I can’t keep you here with me
8
ANNE MARIE
(5/27/20)
Destruction and chaos hold hands with addiction. This is a story about the unraveling it causes, based on someone we were close to.
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Marlboro Lights under the moon
Poison coffee in the morning
Late at night I think of you
I wonder what ever became
Of Anne Marie
Anne Marie
Smelled like jasmine and gin
More like Norma Jean than Marilyn
Did you ever make it home
From chasing boys at the casino
When a star burns out
It don’t make a sound
But would you try for me
Maybe
You’d come down
Does it make a difference now
When you lie to you like you lie to me
Anne Marie
Anne Marie
Always said you were better high
Loved the taste of yesterday’s wine
How’d you get to be so cool
I used to wanna be just like you
When a star burns out
It don’t make a sound
But would you try for me
Maybe
You’d come down
Does it make a difference now
When you lie to you like you lie to me
Anne Marie
Anne Marie
When a star burns out
It don’t make a sound
But would you try for me
Maybe
You’d come down
Does it make a difference now
When you lie to you like you lie to me
Like you lie to me
Like you lie to me
9
5 O’CLOCK SHADOW
(3/11/19)
An ode to the darkness inside us that inevitably creeps in most evening hours.
When we got together to write “5 O’Clock Shadow,” we were both knee-deep in the winter blues—the place we all go sometimes where it’s more difficult to get out of bed in the mornings, or to go to bed at night without…help. The help of unhealthy habits. Drinking every night and existing just to exist. Every person in the world knows someone or is someone who struggles with addiction. We felt it was important to create this song and video to let people know they are not alone.
Woke up drunk again
Pounding in my head
Like the day before
Passed out on the bed
Lipstick cigarettes
Evidence of war
How the hell am I supposed to live without
You’re the only thing that makes me feel right now
And I can’t let it go
Hold together everything I gotta hold
But I fall whenever I’m alone
And there you are again
Hello old friend
Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow
Taking me down to the dark side of town, back to blue
Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow
Spinning me ‘round and ‘round till there’s nothing I can do
But drown in you
Drown in you
Drag myself to work
Even when it hurts
Functional at best
No one ever asks
Wave as they walk past
That’s just life I guess
Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow
Taking me down to the dark side of town, back to blue
Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow
Spinning me ‘round and ‘round till there’s nothing I can do
But drown in you
Drown in you
The light, it hurts my eyes
So I paint it black
Used to burn so bright
Now I
I don’t shine at all
Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow
Taking me down to the dark side of town, back to blue
Oh, that’s my 5 o'clock shadow
Spinning me ‘round and ‘round till there’s nothing I can do
But drown in you
Drown in you
Drown in you
Drown in you
10
LIAR’S LAND
(3/28/19)
We’ve all dealt with shameless liars in our lives. If only there were a place they could all go.
I could give you space as wide as the universe
Somehow I would be too close
Fade away as dark as all your goodbye words
I could leave you all alone
But it’s never enough
No, it’s never enough
You washed me out your hair
You’re finally clean
You’re such a hypocrite
Why you gotta be so mean
You act like a lover
But never a friend
Baby, you belong in a liar’s land
Say that it’s over
Again and again
Baby, you belong in a liar’s land
Ooh, ooh
You know I can see your car parked right next door
And you know it gives me hell
Talkin’ all the shit you know I can’t ignore
Do it for the joke as far as I can tell
You washed me out your hair
You’re finally clean
You’re such a hypocrite
Why you gotta be so mean
You act like a lover
But never a friend
Baby, you belong in a liar’s land
Say that it’s over
Again and again
Baby, you belong in a liar’s land
Tell me, does it make you feel good
Does it make you feel good to make me feel bad
Tell me, does it make you feel good
Does it make you feel good
Does it make you feel good
Woah
11
PAST LIFE
(1/8/20)
We wanted to create a wave of sound and emotion that encompasses the euphoria of falling in love with someone you just know you’ve met before.
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I’ve seen your face before
The one where you got somethin’ to say
But baby, you’re not sure
A moment of clarity
In the space between
You know how to hold me close
But when I push away
You know to let me go
Feels like a million years
We’ve been standing here
If I got over you
Then what would my heart do
Can’t lose your love this time
Caught in your golden light
We were paradise
In a past life
Always you and I
In a past life
You’re like a mirror ball
Reflecting every time I found you
And you made me fall
Pieces of history
In the space between
If I got over you
Then what would my heart do
Can’t lose your love this time
Caught in your golden light
We were paradise
In a past life
Always you and I
In a past life
We were paradise